What a difference 8 months makes!

When people see me now they don't see my face- they see belly- and then the questions I know they are about to ask come. "Are you about to pop? Wow!" I have gotten over telling people I am having twins, it gets repetitive in response. But, if they ask what I am having I feel obligated to answer-a boy and a girl. Then they know I am having two and the conversation begins. Are they fraternal, or identical. (seeing that they are boy and girl how could they possibly be identical I want to tell people) What am I naming them, how far along am I. What they went through in their pregnancies. Don't get me wrong I enjoy the acknowledgement but when I am in a hurry or feeling like crap its not really a conversation I feel like having. But I know this is a gift. I love it when people tell me "oh I want to have twins." or "I'm going to have twins when I get pregnant." Like they have the choice. I want to say do you realize the toll it will have on your body? While totally worth it don't you know what you are trying to get yourself into?:)I love it when people say "oh you're not that big for having twins!" I just want to scream at them and say well I feel big...huge...like a semi truck or like big bird...but all I do is smile and say thanks... The best part of those conversations is always the point when I tell them I have a 2 and 4 year old at home...you should hear those responses. From good luck to you're sure busy, to you have your hands full...the look on peoples faces are priceless. Now that I am home on bed rest I don't really deal with that anymore-except at Dr. appts and on rare occasions when I do get out of the house. This has definitely been a ride!!!

3.15.11 The day I took my test

4 weeks

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6 weeks ----->Found out we were having TWINS!!!

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15 weeks---->finally feels like I am starting to show:)

16 weeks------> Found out we are having a boy and a girl:)

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20 weeks----->at least half way there:)

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31 weeks and counting:)

The waiting Game

So here I am...waiting. Waiting to be off bed rest. Waiting for the babies to make their grand entrance into this world. Whenever that may be. I am hoping they don't come too soon. I was hospitalized for another week. Dilated even more than 2 weeks before when I was hospitalized. But, luckily they let me come home again. I was starting to go stir crazy. Missing Ty, missing Kiley. Wanting to be home with Kyle. I know that the best thing for the babies is for them to stay in my stomach for another 2-4 weeks but at this point it is so hard! The waiting game is really getting to me. As this pregnancy gets closer and closer to the final days I can't help but think about how much I am going to miss this feeling. As much as I am over the heartburn, stretch marks, bed rest and the over all effect it is having on my body-I can't help but be sad. I am realizing that this is it. I won't ever bear life again. I am done having kids after the twins come. I love that the numbers in our family are even-2 boys and 2 girls. I can't wait to enjoy our newest additions. I look forward to holding them, feeding them, loving them, enjoying them and being their mother. I can't wait for Ty and Kiley to finally know them as people and not just the huge bump on Mommy's tummy. I wish time would hurry up and pass so they could be healthy and strong when they do arrive. Then, at the same time-after they arrive I want to pause time. Keep them little babies forever. Because all too soon-they will be starting to sit up, crawl, walk, run, talk and become little people of their own-little people that we created!



Kiley has been staying with her dad and her aunt in San Jose. So I haven't seen her for a few weeks but luckily Britt has Ty and is taking him to and from school for me. She was able to bring him to visit me in the hospital every few days- that sure made my days better. I love my little guy:)and boy do I miss my little princess. Soon the babies will come and Ty and Kiley can come home and things will all be back to normal!

Bed Rest and the Unknown

During my 28th week of pregnancy I expect to Be enjoying life-not worried about the potential of my babies being born and attached to tubes. But on 9.1.11 I was admitted to the hospital with that worry- my babies might come early. I was dilating, tested positive for the fetal fibernecton test, which shows they could come in the next 2 weeks. The took every precaution they could. I was given the betamethazone steroid shots to mature their lungs. I was put on a Magnesium IV to help develop their brains so they would have less change of brain bleeds. This is such a scary time. After being there for 4 days they have released me- sent me home with medications to stop contractions. I have been instructed to come back if I am having contractions or if "something feels different." The unknown has to be the scariest part in all of this. While we can not wait to meet Jackson and Lola- we don't want the first breaths they take to be from that of a machine. I want them to be able to come home with us. I can't imagine being discharged and leaving them there. I spoke to one of the NICU nurses about what to expect. Luckily Sutter Roseville, where I will deliver and was hospitalized has a NICU. So, they will not have to be transported if they do come early. She talked to me about the machines, the potential complications and the role Kyle and I can play in their lives while they are in the NICU. I can't say when I will deliver but I pray and hope for their sake it's not for another 6+ weeks. My ultrasound showed Lola weighs 2.5 pounds and Jackson weighs 2.9pounds. At this point, because of their fragile state I will be given a c-section if they do come in the next few weeks. Come on babies- keep growing.

20 weeks! Half way there!! Happy 4th!

So, I am half way through my 3rd pregnancy with the TWINS! I can't imagine how quick the next 15-20 weeks will go by seeing how fast the first 20 weeks went. I am feeling a realm of emotions from this. I can't imagine what life will be like once they get here. I wonder what they will look like, if they will have my nose or his hair color, my toes or his...little things like that. I am enjoying every last second of this because this is the last pregnancy I Will ever experience. 4 children to love and raise is wonderful. It's going to be hectic and crazy at times I am sure. I couldn't imagine having more after this. I don't think it'd be fair to the 4 I have. I never thought (though I am super happy) that I would be a mommy of 4. I have plenty of love to go around though and am so thankful for this gift. There is nothing greater, more rewarding to me then being a mother. I thank my lucky stars everyday to have my kids- and the 2 that are on the way!! Thanks Jas for taking these pics for me to cherish for years to come, where I can look back and remember what it was like to have life growing inside of me...the most empowering feeling in the world:) I had a great time spending the 4Th with you and am so lucky to have you as my friend. Love ya!

I am finally feeling like I look pregnant! I am startng to really show now! 19 weeks and counting. I started feeling the babies kick me a few weeks ago. Even though I've had two other little ones in my tummy- its still has to be one of the most incredible feeling ever! To know there are 2 of them in there, at once...its such a new feeling. I just wonder who is kicking me:) 15-20 more weeks and they will be in my arms...

19 weeks

Its a boy and a girl!!

I am so excited! I went to my ultrasound today to find out what the babies are going to be. I decided to have an ultrasound done for sex determination. I couldn't wait any longer to find out! I am a little over 16 weeks. I couldn't be happier with the turn out:) Another son AND another daughter. I love it! I can't wait to meet them, and its awesome Kyle will have a son and a daughter all at once:) And Ty and Kiley will have a little brother and a little sister! Now- to figure out names!!

15 weeks and counting

I am 15 weeks and starting to show. Or at least I feel like it! I am told my stomach is still small and you can't really tell...but I sure can!! I stil wonder how big I am going to get...I can't imagine 2 full size babies in this tummy of mine:)

To the Dr. We Go

Kiley went with me to the Dr. the other day. I was excited to see the babies and wanted to show her what they looked like. The appointment went good and the babies look great. While we were waiting I took a few pictures of my little one. She is getting so big. I wonder if she gets the fact that pretty soon she will have 2 new babies in the house.

Surprise!!!

Well I have big news to share!! Double the fun, double the love and double the...well everything!!:) I am pregnant! Kyle and I are expecting!! But the biggest part of the surprise?? ITS TWINS!!! my oh my...I can't say I am not scared to death. But I can't say I am not excited either, actually I am super excited! I can not believe it! Having 4 kids will defienity be hard at times. But I love being a parent and I feel so blessed that I will have two more little ones to love and watch grow. I still can't believe, I am having twins!! I can't wait to find out what they are:) I am due Novemeber 20, 2011!!!I will post pics as my belly grows-which omg I can't imagine how big I am going to be!!!