5 candles

It feels like only yesterday he was just a vision on a ultrasound monitor. Waiting for Tyler to be born was the longest 9 months I ever experienced. Something about that first pregnancy, first baby, becoming a parent for the first time. It was all so surreal, and exciting. I remember the day he was born. The emotion I felt and the immense amount of love I had for someone I had just laid my eyes on. I didn't sleep for over 36 hours after he was born, I couldn't let myself- I didn't want to miss anything he did, sleeping, breathing- just being him- alive and here on this earth with us. His first year was full of firsts, as one might imagine. He was his daddy's little man and my vision of perfection. We felt so incredibly blessed that he was ours. Over the past 5 years I have watched him become such an interesting little guy. He is so inquisitive and smart. I know-every parent thinks their child is smart and all but he really is wise beyond his years. He was riding his bike without training wheels before he was 3 1/2. He loves to go on roller coasters, he is so emotional connected to other peoples feelings and what is going on around him it amazes me sometimes the things he is able to grasp and comprehend. He is a wonderful big brother and an amazing son. He helps me out so very much and makes my days worth living. I am still in shock that he will be 5 years old on Monday- but if you ask him it couldn't have come soon enough! He is very excited to be turning 5... Being a parent is without a doubt the most rewarding thing I have done in my life. Being here for them, watching them become who they are, I wouldn't and couldn't imagine being anywhere else in life. I love being a mom.
I love my children, I love that Tyler is MY son...he is such a little man- and each and everyday when I wake up I am so thankful to have him in my life and can't wait to see where this life takes him. The sky is the limit and my son reaches for the stars. Happy 5th birthday my little man- mommy loves you with all my heart.

What a difference 8 months makes!

When people see me now they don't see my face- they see belly- and then the questions I know they are about to ask come. "Are you about to pop? Wow!" I have gotten over telling people I am having twins, it gets repetitive in response. But, if they ask what I am having I feel obligated to answer-a boy and a girl. Then they know I am having two and the conversation begins. Are they fraternal, or identical. (seeing that they are boy and girl how could they possibly be identical I want to tell people) What am I naming them, how far along am I. What they went through in their pregnancies. Don't get me wrong I enjoy the acknowledgement but when I am in a hurry or feeling like crap its not really a conversation I feel like having. But I know this is a gift. I love it when people tell me "oh I want to have twins." or "I'm going to have twins when I get pregnant." Like they have the choice. I want to say do you realize the toll it will have on your body? While totally worth it don't you know what you are trying to get yourself into?:)I love it when people say "oh you're not that big for having twins!" I just want to scream at them and say well I feel big...huge...like a semi truck or like big bird...but all I do is smile and say thanks... The best part of those conversations is always the point when I tell them I have a 2 and 4 year old at home...you should hear those responses. From good luck to you're sure busy, to you have your hands full...the look on peoples faces are priceless. Now that I am home on bed rest I don't really deal with that anymore-except at Dr. appts and on rare occasions when I do get out of the house. This has definitely been a ride!!!

3.15.11 The day I took my test

4 weeks

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6 weeks ----->Found out we were having TWINS!!!

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15 weeks---->finally feels like I am starting to show:)

16 weeks------> Found out we are having a boy and a girl:)

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20 weeks----->at least half way there:)

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31 weeks and counting:)

The waiting Game

So here I am...waiting. Waiting to be off bed rest. Waiting for the babies to make their grand entrance into this world. Whenever that may be. I am hoping they don't come too soon. I was hospitalized for another week. Dilated even more than 2 weeks before when I was hospitalized. But, luckily they let me come home again. I was starting to go stir crazy. Missing Ty, missing Kiley. Wanting to be home with Kyle. I know that the best thing for the babies is for them to stay in my stomach for another 2-4 weeks but at this point it is so hard! The waiting game is really getting to me. As this pregnancy gets closer and closer to the final days I can't help but think about how much I am going to miss this feeling. As much as I am over the heartburn, stretch marks, bed rest and the over all effect it is having on my body-I can't help but be sad. I am realizing that this is it. I won't ever bear life again. I am done having kids after the twins come. I love that the numbers in our family are even-2 boys and 2 girls. I can't wait to enjoy our newest additions. I look forward to holding them, feeding them, loving them, enjoying them and being their mother. I can't wait for Ty and Kiley to finally know them as people and not just the huge bump on Mommy's tummy. I wish time would hurry up and pass so they could be healthy and strong when they do arrive. Then, at the same time-after they arrive I want to pause time. Keep them little babies forever. Because all too soon-they will be starting to sit up, crawl, walk, run, talk and become little people of their own-little people that we created!



Kiley has been staying with her dad and her aunt in San Jose. So I haven't seen her for a few weeks but luckily Britt has Ty and is taking him to and from school for me. She was able to bring him to visit me in the hospital every few days- that sure made my days better. I love my little guy:)and boy do I miss my little princess. Soon the babies will come and Ty and Kiley can come home and things will all be back to normal!

Celebrating with the Fam

Being on bed rest is very hard. Way harder than I thought. I wanted to much to be able to have a big celebration for Kiley's birthday-but it just couldn't happen that way. Luckily, my aunt and great grandparents came down from Chico earlier today. We had a great visit. We went to the Spaghetti Factory to celebrate Kiley's birthday, and I have to admit it was very nice to get out of the house! I am taking it easy, don't get me wrong- but even the few hours we were out for lunch was such a breath of fresh air for me! I am glad we were able to make the outing about Kiley, from the bike they brought her, which she loves- to the workers at The Spaghetti Factory singing her happy birthday I think she had a great day! Thanks again for making the special trip down aunt Teresa, mum, and grandpa- we had a great visit!

My little Princess turns 3

Crazy to think, its already been a year since she turned 2. My little princess is quickly growing out of the toddler stages and becoming a little kid. She is such a girly girl. From painting her nails, which she will ask about almost everyday- to wanting to do make up with me when I am getting ready in the morning. She loves to have her hair done and has varied opinions each day on how she wants it styled. She loves Disney Princess movies, Cinderella and The Little Mermaid are her favorite. She insists on wearing dresses and on the rare occasions I don't give in and make her wear pants or shorts she is sure to tell me about it. She will be starting preschool next week.
Kiley loves her big brother. She loves to follow him around and play with whatever he is interested in. They help each other. Tyler is very good to her. If he wants something he is sure to ask if his sister can have the same. If he is working on something he will show her what he is doing. I cherish the moments I stand outside of one of their rooms while I can hear him teaching her numbers or how to make a toy work. "Its like this Kiley, here you have a turn." If he wants to do something-she wants to be right there with him doing the same exact thing. Don't get me wrong, they have their moments-they are siblings after all but- for the most part they are really close. I love that. I love that they love each other and are already showing a bond that will carry on through the years to come. I don't think I will have to worry about those boyfriends 30 years:) down the line- I think Tyler will be right there to handle the boys his sister brings home-he protects her and I love that!